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WORLD  Letter to ISKCON from Prthu das BY PRITHU DAS EUROPE, Oct 23 (VNN) — Dear devotees in the ISKCON family and outside, Please accept my humble obeisance. All Glories to Srila Prabhupada. I wish to inform you of my present situation. I have some very serious health problems for a couple of months. I am going through a phase of massive depressions and my experience has been and is at times a nightmare of utter hopelessness, abandonment, intense unhappiness and helplessness. These difficulties may have been possibly exaggerated both by my Hepatitis C condition as well as a recent very severe fasting regime. There is an underlying spiritual cause to all of this though, which I owe you to disclose: I have been failing to follow our spiritual principles for a good while. The present intense bout of depressions are actually the deserved reaction for not practicing what I have been preaching all these years, keeping the other very dark side of myself to myself and locked away from my family, my disciples and the rest of the world. To get to a better place it is clear that first of all I need to be honest with myself and all of you. Further I need to resign from my service as initiating guru and discontinue to guide my disciples in that capacity. Last not least I wish to resign from my position as member of the Governing Body of ISKCON. As for the future: There is no question in my mind as for my ongoing service to Srila Prabhupada and his wonderful movement. What exact form that service might take is not clear to me as for now and I would appreciate your feedback. I am sorry and apologize to you for being a disappointment. Let me ask for forgiveness to offences I have committed over the years to many of you. I pray that you be kind to this poor soul, pray for me and give me your support at this trying time. My heart goes out to my beloved disciples who have been wonderful friends to me all these years, a great source of happiness and support, especially in the last very trying days. May Sri Krishna bless them more and more and able to drag me home, back to Godhead. Thank you for listening to my story. The story of one who went out to save the world being on the inside a deeply troubled, helpless and unhappy soul. Your servant Prithu das PS If you want to share with me your thoughts, please contact me at prithu.acbsp@pamho.net Contact VNN about this story  Send this story to a friend
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